“One of the hardest things you will ever have to do, my dear,
is to grieve the loss of a person who is still alive.” -Unknown
I’m not gonna lie. Leaving someone in the past hurts.
Leaving behind the boy that meant everything to you hurts. It hurts so damn
much that you can’t even get out of bed every day. It’s not silent tears and after
a few months everything is okay again and you can think about him and smile.
No, this is so much worse. It’s waking up and realizing that he is no longer in
your life. It leaves you shaking and so numb that tears won’t even come to your
eyes. It’s wanting to go running back to him so many times and sometimes it
must be repeated until you can survive the pain. It’s falling to pieces every
night and forcing yourself out of bed the next day. You force yourself to get
up and move about your life as if he never existed. And hopefully, you reach
the magical point where it just doesn’t hurt as much. But until you reach that
point, you fight, curse and cry every damn day.
But here’s the thing: you know in your heart that it has to
be done. You know that you must now leave this toxic human being in your past
and never allow them to hurt you again. And here’s how you gotta do it.
Delete every single picture, every single text, and
everything in between. You literally destroy any evidence of their existence.
You delete and unfollow them on any and all social media. You stay busy, because
if you allow yourself the time, I promise you will fall to pieces every time
and allow him right back into your life. Delete all those sad quotes on your
phone and stop listening to the songs that remind you of him. And don’t forget:
if he wanted to be in your life, he would have made an effort.
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